I just wish I would die already. I am tired of existing. I don’t even live. I merely exist. I am tired of it. I have no one in my life except online friends an people who are paid to be in my life (support workers, psychs etc.) Ugh. I am tired of this fucking bullshit. Every fucking day is the same. Being terrified of people, but being lonely as fuck. I wonder if i can sue for wrongful life. I’m autie as fuck. ADHD as fuck. BPD as fuck. I’ve fucking had enough.

Ugh. When will this bullshit end. Sorry for posting so much :/