Educational - I am going to get my high school diploma this year after dropping out a decade ago. So far, I have completed 2.5 credits with a pretty good average. Going to try to get into Healthcare Office Administration afterwards.

Financial - Create a savings fund in case of emergency. Register for the disability tax credit. Get my mom on OAS/GIS.

Community - Look into volunteer opportunities in my area and see what I can do over the summer to help contribute to my community.

Endgoal: Be as happy as possible.

Hi, its been a gazillion years since I was last on this platform but I hope you’ve all been doing well.

This week I have been doing some self reflecting due to politics, and I am trying to figure out how to get involved in my local community. Currently starting off small by finishing my high school diploma after a decade, and seeing if I can help my fellow classmates out with the resources I know about. Since they’re also all in similar situations with educational and financial issues, I have been collecting resources on things like digital literacy, sexual health, financial planning sites, and local food banks.

I am also thinking of conquering my fear of meeting my ex in-laws and going to the local LGBTQ drop in, but that will have to wait a few weeks. Got too many appointments.

Other than that, I started talking to my friends again after dealing with social anxiety caused by being “chronically offline” for once. Since I am studying now, I need to work on my school-life balance too.

My mother got put back on her disability benefits and now I’m hunting down apartments for us to live in to get out of a bad housing situation that we were stuck in because it was cheap and we only had one income.

Got two viewings this week.

My mother’s internal review went through and she not only is going back on disability, but because the decision to kick her off was a wrong decision, they’re giving her almost a year’s worth of backpay.

Things this means:

• We can actually move to a place without a landlord and her son living in it, giving us tenant rights and the ability to communicate with a landlord without worrying we’re going to get evicted
• We can even afford movers
• We might not have to go to a food bank anymore
• We can now budget things instead of being like “okay that goes to rent, that goes to debt, and anything leftover is groceries”
• I don’t have to hunt for a job while physically and mentally incapable of doing one right now

I’m honestly so thrilled my head hurts.

Wasn’t permanent but there was a brief few minutes where I didn’t have anything pop up in the subscribed communities, —refreshing it then gave me that “we’re working on the site” bug page. Back to normal now!

Doesn’t seem to be a major issue, but figured I’d mention it in case that pops up for anyone else.

Fata Morgana.

Listen, whether you like Visual Novels or not doesn’t matter. But Fata Morgana is just somehow…perfect. Everything is resolved and I don’t feel any need to complain about any aspect of it. It was an experience to play a game that left me with no questions afterwards. It was just a really good story.

Having just a teensy bit of a nervous breakdown reevaluating my life choices the night before a job interview.

Gonna try to get to sleep, though.

Jam the Housnail.

I thought for the longest time it was a fever dream. That it didn’t exist. I could never find it anything related to the godforsaken thing on any Canadian channels list of cartoons they aired. My family thinks I am joking when I mention how horribly this show plagued my thoughts over this years, but I had been searching for a decade.

Anyway apparently it’s from Japan and I probably watched it on Veoh or something, because it’s on my anime list now and I finally found out what it was called last year.

https://myanimelist.net/anime/29367/Jam_the_Housnail

Genshin Impact and Honkai Star Rails.

Genshin Impact successfully had my attention for over five hundred days. It’s a regularly updated game that can be played entirely F2P, and I love that concept. Anyone who claims that you have to whale to get good at the game is wrong. You just have to play the game and ignore that some Youtubers and Twitch Streamers seem to believe that fake big numbers are the only way to improve in that game. In reality, I’ve watched streamers ignore that, and instead opt to play with their favorite romantic pairing or favorite character because they just enjoy the game more that way.

Honkai Star Rails seems to be a similar concept, however it faces a dilemma where it is a turn-based game and as a result the battle mechanics, so far, have to be more carefully considered. For example, I run a defense-healer-single attack-AOE attack team. So far, I tend to die if I don’t do that. The gameplay is more simplistic than Genshin Impact, but the battles are stronger and tend to take longer. Bright side: because it was recently launched you get a bunch of free pulls! Yeah!

Not really.

I like witchy stuff but only if its considerable to placebos. A rose quartz bracelet, for example, might not be scientifically going to attract love and good fortune—but its cute and makes me happy, so who knows, THAT might help.

If I had to choose a religion though, I’d probably go with one of those polytheist religions because ever since I was a kid and first went to a church camp, I decided that a singular “God” scares the shit out of me. I basically considered “God” too overpowered and decided that wasn’t for me.

Not going well but I am not without hope either.

My mom didn’t get approved for social assistance so I’m crunching numbers on our budget for the next month or so.

Brought out the instant pot and made some nice black beans, which I turned into black bean burgers. 😋

Switched from Pop OS to Linux Mint, liking the experience so far. Not as cute as Pop OS was, but I like the interface and the battery alerts and sound effects. So it’s not bad.

Got bipolar disorder, so yes, I understand completely.

You’d THINK that being diagnosed with something that is prone to giving you depression would make you clue in quicker, but it doesn’t. “Nah, can’t be that.”

Thank you, I am super incredibly nervous but I hope it ends up going well. Kinda sucks trying to support another person when I myself am on poverty-level social assistance, but if both of us are on it, it will relieve a lot of stress.

I love visual novels but I’m so bad at playing them. I keep buying them because I love to support the industry, but they tend to be hours and hours long so I don’t finish them, aha.

The last one I played through a route on was “Life After Magic” which is a pretty relatable queer VN about a Sailor Moon expy who dropped out of high school and ended up in a dead-end job, having to reunite with her friends / potential love interests. I’d like to finish this one because I know you can date the villain in one route.

After roughly five hours of phone calls, on Friday I somehow managed to get a lead on getting my mother back on social assistance. We have an appointment tomorrow for her to apply. I’m hoping that the application actually goes through and we don’t once again get told to screw off.

I’m gonna be exhausted this week!! I have so many appointments.

KDE Connect means that I can ping my phone that’s usually presumably somewhere behind my bed or on a counter somewhere, without having to sheepishly walk to the nearest person and ask “can you call my phone I lost it :c”

I notice injustice, I just don’t often do anything about it because of my anxiety disorder, which makes me cry myself to sleep for six hours.

Oh yeah, it’s definitely more than just attention issues in class. Fun trivia: we have a high comorbidity rate with bipolar disorder. Did you know that? Our emotional dysregulation tends to be so bad that people with ADHD keep getting diagnosed with bipolar. How is that school based? What does that have to do with homework? Nothing! Yet, everyone acts like ADHD is just something that interferes with homework! It’s frustrating.

Oh definitely. Let’s talk about adhd for a second.

So first of all, everyone assumes the only issues it causes is with work and schooling. Once it affects your daily life, That’s when allies start to eye you weirdly. Sorry, what do you mean that you can’t do laundry right now because of “executive dysfunction”—even kids can do their chores if their parents bug them enough!

Secondly, resources are slim. Books are targeted towards teenagers in school, parents and their unruly kids, parents and their gifted kids…but there sadly isn’t as many books on adult ADHD unless it’s an organization book!

Next, let’s talk about the depression and stress it causes. No one clues into that. Free therapy in my province is targeted towards warped thinking, which is great and all but doesn’t help at all when it comes to adhd. I’m not necessarily depressed because I thought of the bad things that are going to happen–I’m depressed because I can’t physically bring myself to do something productive right now. It’s executive dysfunction, not sadness.

Genshin Impact.

Listen. I understand that the entire thing was hyped up upon release. It was, after all, a gamechanger for mobile gacha games. We went from turn-based games to things like Honkai Star Rail and Tower of Fantasy and of course, Genshin Impact. Honkai Impact 3rd existed, but it wasn’t quite the same as these ones.

However. Despite the hype, there was a problem that made me reluctant to play it.

I really suck at gacha games. Every gacha game before then I would drop within what, 6 days? I love the characters, love the story, hate the game.

So imagine my surprise when I logged into my settings the other day and found out that oh, It’s now been over 500 days logged, lmao. I’ve taken breaks from it once in a while, but I haven’t quit it yet. What have I become?